Thursday, May 31, 2007

He loves me, He loves me not....

So today my neighbors little granddaughter came over to play with Mollie. The girls were sitting on the front porch playing My Little Ponies and I went outside to sit with them for a little while and this lady was walking up the sidewalk with a basket of flowers. She came to my walkway and said "Are you Danielle?" I told her I was and she handed me the basket of flowers. It was full of white daisies. The card reads "Hope this brightens your day as much as you have brightened mine." I was pleasantly surprised. It is things like this that make me love my husband. I am going to try and be a wonderful wife this weekend and hope that I get more flowers.

Wednesday, May 30, 2007

I have a great friend...

So today I walked the mall with Manda. I need to loose weight and I really enjoy her company. Ada was so sweet and full of smiles. It is nice to be friends with her. I enjoy talking to her and it is nice to know that the way I feel sometimes is normal. Her friendship means alot to me. So THANKS FOR BEING A GREAT FRIEND MANDA! We had lunch at the Panda Express and while we were there, a man asked me about my stroller. Come to find out his twins girls are in the NICU. So Manda talked to him about that. I didn't really have much to say because the twinies came home with me and weren't in the NICU but he seemed to really take in what Manda said! I hope that guy's little daughters get strong and healthy and come home soon. If I ever need to know anything about anything, I think I can ask Manda.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Baby Report Card.....

Babies fed...CHECK...Babies bathed...CHECK...Babies changed...CHECK...Babies asleep...CHECK...and all of this before 10 p.m. I have 5 minutes to spare. Mommy fed...NOPE...Mommy bathed...NOPE...Mommy tired...CHECK!!! But not complaining because now I can sit and enjoy some quiet before Clint gets home. So today was a better day! Went to the park and had fun with Manda, Ada, Cindy and Alex. It was good company and the twins seem to really like being outside. They just lay on the blanket under the tree and look around. Of course Ada loves to kiss the babies and she even calls them "Kitty"! It is fun to hang out with Manda and Cindy. They have some cute babies.

Tonight I have managed to get the twins to be awake and not cry. I put them each in a bouncer, fed them and then gave them each a bath. After I put them in their jammies we all just sat on the couch and they both just looked around and cooed. It was sweet and nice to know they can be awake and not cry without being held. I was starting to think that they were spoiled. But then I reminded myself, my babies aren't spoiled! Yeah right they are as spoiled as spoiled can be.

I am starting to adjust to not working. It is a bittersweet feeling. On one hand there is nothing I love more than spending my days caring for my kids and being on my own schedule. If I want to go to lunch with friends or wear my jammies all day, I can. I am certainly not upset about saving the $1800.00 bucks a month it would have cost me for daycare. I am not mad about saving all the money in gas to Fairfax. But then on the other hand, I miss getting out of the house everyday and going to work. I miss feeling important as far as being a career mom. I loved working. I loved my friends at work. I do not miss the traffic! I just wish there was a solution. I was thinking about taking this class at Germanna in Phlebotomy. I could get a job at the hospital at nights and still be home with them during the day and not shipping them off to a day care for someone else to raise! The class isn't that long a few months at best and isn't really that expensive. Maybe I should look into it. But is that really what I want to do? Not sure!

I am impressed with how good my downstairs looks. Clint did most of it Saturday but I did the top of my cabinets finally! It looks so good. I find myself going into the kitchen just gazing at the top of my cabinets. I probably smile when I look up there because I am just that happy with them!

Tomorrow is walk the mall with Manda! Maybe we can make this a weekly thing. I need to do something to loose this "junk in the trunk" I have since way back when. I want to fit back into some clothes without having to lay on the bed and suck in my tummy to button my pants! I am sure I will be just fine. I just want to take off about 25 more pounds.

Monday, May 28, 2007

Where is my Sanity???

I think I lost it when we brought the twins home from the hospital or maybe it was the day I had Mollie or maybe it was the day I got married or maybe even it was lost the day I was born. Some day I feel like the day is not long enough and other days I feel like I the day needs to hurry up and be over. Today is one of those (hurry up and be over) days. I think today could have possibly been one of the worst days of my life. I don't really want to go into details but let me just say it was BAD!!! Tomorrow will be better I am sure! I know that tomorrow is "Lunch in the Park" and I know that tomorrow today will be over.

So when do you start feeding your baby/ies jar food? When do babies sleep thru the night? At what age do babies start to sit up? At what age do they start to crawl? I am such a horrible mother that I can't remember when I did this stuff with Mollie. I think I fed her bananas at 2 and 1/2 months and I know that she cut her first tooth on 4th of July, 2003 and that she took her first steps 3 days before her first birthday and she was walking by her 1st birthday. I really would like to know when the twins will stop being so boring and start entertaining me! I mean I enjoy my babies but man are they boring. They just eat, poop, pee, sleep and cry and then repeat. I mean I want for them to entertain themselves if even for 10 minutes so I can take a shower. I am hoping that in the next month things will start to get a little better. Maybe that is wishful thinking.

I think I want to go back to school. I want to get a degree even if it is an Associates Degree. I want some sort degree that has to do with Education. I always wanted to be a Kindergarten Teacher. But the man upstairs had other plans for me. Now I think since I am staying home I should but myself to work and go back to school. What is the process? How will we afford it? Can I do it?

Sunday, May 27, 2007

So long Sunday....

What a busy day I have had.....This morning it was church, which I must say was a very wonderful sermon. They had an Honor Guard there to present the colors and then they played the "theme song" for each branch of service and asked that if you were serving or had served to stand up when your "theme" played. Of course they played the Marine Corps. Hymn last (Clint says they saved the best for last!!) and Clint stood up. Then we came home after church and I changed all the girls and then I loaded up the kids and headed out to my Aunt Cindy's house for a cook out/pool party! Mollie swam all afternoon and the babies got much attention from all the family. Clint was at home getting ready for his night job! When I got home I worked on the massive cleaning my house is getting. It felt nice to get a little decorating in! We have been in this house almost a year and there is very little decorating!

So now I am at home watching Extreme Home Makeover. Why do I watch shows like this? I am going to get up here and wash the few dishes that are dirty and make some Sweet Tea. I love me some Sweet Tea! The twins are laying on the couch with me and I jsut heard Katelyn let out two massive farts! That girl is soooo gassy!

I am going to start counting down the days until our family vacation. We are going to Little Rock Arkansas on July 11th. We are taking all the kids and Clint's sister Dustee and her new husband Greg are coming down with their three kids, Lauren, J.D. and Kain! We are all looking forward to getting together for fun times and some R&R! Clint's dad has an inground pool and lots of land. I bet the kids will have a blast. I will have a blast too! Hope the weather is nice while we are there!

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Congratulations Rachel!

Rachel is my future sister-in-law. She is dating my brother Josh who is in the Marine Corps. She is off to Longwood College with the goal to become an Art Teacher. Well anyways, she had her graduation party today and the girls and I went. She lives on Lake Anna so Mollie got to get wet and I got to visit with some friends and the babies just got held all afternoon long. Plus my brother was home on leave so it was great to see him!

When I got home, my whole downstairs was clean. Clint has been one busy man. He has organized and rearranged and my house is looking great.

What a great weekend so far. Hope the rest of the holiday is this good!

Friday, May 25, 2007

Just like Shrek the Third.....

So I had the girls in two of their bouncers because it is easy to feed both of them that way. After I was done feeding them, I went into the kitchen to rinse out their bottles and came back to find a third baby in a bouncer. I questioned Mollie who told me that we needed to have "Triplets just like Shrek the Third." Here is my newest baby. Thank goodness she never gets hungry and sleeps thru the night!

Is this my life?!?!?!?!

While starting my morning chores, I started thinking so I had to come to my BLOG and type my thoughts. In my head they sounded great but not sure how they will come out as I type.

OK here I go.....Is this my life or am I just dreaming? I mean have I become something I never wanted to be? Am I really a married mother of three who drives the SUV to soccer practice on Saturday and strives to be the PTA President? Am I "THAT" mom who pushes her children to much? Am I trying to be something I am not? Do I wish that I had something else than what I have? I want a clean house, I want well mannered and respectable children. I want to have dinner at the kitchen table instead of in front of the T.V. I want to make well balanced and healthy meals for my family. I want a marriage with no trouble. I want to have a savings account that has "rainy day" money. I want to fit in!

I don't know if I am going thru some baby blues or stress for having two infants. I don't know which way I am coming or going. I don't know what we are having for dinner tonight let alone what I am going to eat for lunch. I think about the arguments that I have with my husband, with my family and think WHY? Did I need to say the words that hurt them so much. Clint and I have joined a church that we really like. One thing that I have really worked on is my relationship with God. I want my kids to experience church and all the wonderful things that a relationship with God has to offer. I want to take them to Bible School in the summer and for them to enjoy it as much as I did as a child. Sometimes I just want to go back to those days. I think maybe 7, that was a good age. I want to be able to give my kids everything they need and want. I want to have the day planner with sports games and school activities on it. Am I wanting to much? Am I trying to push to hard?

I want a great relationship with my husband. I want "us" back. I want to stop the fighting and nit picking. I want make him proud. I want him to have a wife that he can say great things about and not wonder why he married me. I want to get up and pack him a lunch and give him the kiss good bye. I want to have dinner ready for him and for him to want to eat it. I would love for him to stop sleeping on the couch because that is the only place he can get some rest. I want us to do things together again. I want him to love me the way he used to.

Maybe I am seeing things all wrong. Maybe I am doing a good job with my family. Maybe my family is happy with the way things are. Maybe everything is OK. Maybe I am just emotional. Maybe I am overreacting to things. Maybe I should just take a nap.

TGIF & A Holiday Weekend!

Not that it matters to me because I don't leave the home to go to work but at least Clint will be able to be home Monday! We don't have anything planned that I know of but at least we can get things done around here. We really want a babysitter for a weekend for all three girls so maybe Clint and I can get away. We know we will never find one because everyone only wants one baby at time!

We survived our parade! Jennifer and I waited at the end with the babies for the older girls to be done with the parade. They looked great. Mollie did so good. She walked the entire route by herself.

Clint and I got into a little disagreement this morning. I am tired of him talking about the "what ifs" and the "could have beens" and the "if we only had...". So I snapped this morning. I told him "Don't we have anything to talk about besides the twins and the what if situations if we had a babysitter." I guess he is mad now. OH WELL....I just wish we could always get along. Why does it seem that life is so difficult? Why can't things be easier? I just wonder "WHY ME???"

The twins are starting to smile and mimic. The love to stick out their tounges! Peyton was smiling up a storm yesterday. I tried to snap a picture of her doing it but she is so quick to change her facial expressions. Here are the pictures that I got!

Well it's time to wake the twins up and start our day! Mollie gets out of school early today so we must get ready!

Thursday, May 24, 2007


So I thought that I was doing good with schedules for the twins. I mean I did everything at the same time for each of them. If one got fed so did the other, if one got a new diaper, so did the other. So tell me why for the last 3 nights, Katelyn has gotten up at 2 a.m. and then she just wants to stay up. Peyton, however, has slept until 4 a.m. Is there a trick? Is there a magic wand that I have to wave to make them sleep thru the night? I can't remember how long it took Mollie to sleep thru the night when she was little but I don't remember being this tired. I think Mollie came home from the hospital sleeping thru the night! Maybe I am just kidding myself. When does this get easier? I feel like this will never end. I am a walking zombie! I still have to manage a nap today because Mollie has a parade tonight and going to a parade sucks the life out of me!

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Look at my Twirler!!

Mollie has been doing Baton since September. She has been a several parades and here is a picture of her "Summer Uniform". She has a parade in Culpeper tomorrow so we were making sure the outfit fit! Doesn't she look cute!
Photobucket Album

I just want to scream because.....

The babies are crying for no reason. They are clean, fed and well rested. What else am I supposed to do? I have them in their bouncers but they just aren't happy with that either. They even got rice cereal today!

I have managed to load the dishwasher and eat a quick bite. How do people do it? I mean, you know people who have twins or more and keep their house clean, have a hot dinner for their families, be a super mom and still look great when then go out in public? I can even manage to fold one load of clothes. I gave Mollie hotdogs for dinner last night and I felt so bad because that should not be a dinner.
Maybe tonight I can get a little rest because Clint will be home!

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Today is the first day.....

So I have decided that I want a blog. Everyone else has one and I guess it is the "cool" thing to do. My daughter Mollie is 4 and my twin daughters were born on April 6, 2007. I am going to start this by talking about me. I am now a Stay at Home mom of 3 wonderful daughters. I miss my job and the friends I had there but I love being with my kiddos! I love my husband too!

My Mollie is super smart and becoming more and more grown every day. She goes to Pre-School everyday and she has learned so much this school year. She has also been doing baton and soccer. She enjoys both activities and I hope that she continues to like doing fun activities. My twins are Peyton Nicole and Katelyn Elizabeth. Peyton looks more like me and acts even more like me. Katelyn looks just like her daddy and is a baby that just wants to snuggle. Speaking of "daddy", he is fabulous. He is so good with the girls. He is just super tired because he is working two jobs. That was better than me going back to work. I do miss him being here to see the girls and help me with them sometimes but he says he is doing what is best for his family.

Today the girls and I went to "Lunch in the Park" with my friend, Amanda. She has the cutest little red head, Ada. Ada is a year old and so sweet. It was nice. It is even nicer to know I can still have a life and friends. I enjoy doing things with the kids. They are getting so big.

I can't wait to take a vacation this summer. We are going to my Father-in-Law's house. He lives in Little Rock Arkansas. I can't wait to go down there to be around Clint's family. It will be nice to go on a family vacation.

Tonight is American Idol and the Finale of Dancing with the Stars! So I am off to watch what I have stored on the Tivo!