Saturday, May 24, 2008

Thankful......(Kind of sad post-Warning)

I haven't had the energy or the time to blog lately and there have been some things that I have wanted to get off my chest. I met a girl named Keisha a few months back. Her mom is one of the twins favorite daycare providers and I must say she is a "grandmother" to them while at daycare. Well Keisha and I met because she had found out she was having twin girls. She was nervous and scared and we would just talk about everything. She was buying up alot of my twin stuff and invited me to her baby shower a few weeks ago. I went and had a great time. Keisha and I talked several times a week. She was having a wonderful pregnancy and she had just gotten the "official" date of June 4th for her C-Section. Her girls were tagged as being identical and I must say I was super excited that we had become such close friends. Well Keisha went to the doctor on Wednesday the 21st for her "routine" appointment and they could only detect one heart beat. They immediately rushed her to the hospital which was next door and her C-Section was done. One of her babies did not make it. A cord mishap is what they said. The "surviving" twin is in NICU but doing very well. Anyway Keisha has been on my heart and mind alot in the last couple of days. She even called me Friday morning to talk. I was kind of at a loss for words. What was the "right" thing to say? Do I offer Congratulations or Sympathy or both? We talked for over an hour and we cried, we laughed, we prayed. I told her I wasn't sure what I wanted to say to her. I told her she was always going to be a mom of twins and noone could take that away from her. And now I worried. I am worried about being around her with my girls. I don't want it to be sad but I understand if it is.

So my post is titled "Thankful" and this is why.....
I am thankful for so much in my life when I think that the world is crumbling down around me. I am thankful for a husband who loves me and has a wonderful job and works everyday somedays on little sleep for his family. He is a wonderful cook and housekeeper on days when I lack in those departments. He is a great father and wonderful supporter. He is the best when it comes to "saving" me from the bugs and snakes that we get out here in the country!!!
I am thankful for the three wonderful healthy girls that God has blessed me with. I am doubly blessed with the twins and that their entrance into this world was so uneventful when it could have been something totally different. The girls bring us so much joy and happiness. I can even be thankful right now as the sistuation with Mollie is not what I would want or think it should be.
I am thankful for my family who even though we are now miles apart, is supportive and love us and never let us down. There is not enough I can say about my family.
Friends, Military Members, and last but not least GOD. I am thankful and love you all.


manda said...

Say your sorry. It's the only thing that needs to be said. She'll too have the same feelings of confliction that you are having, and she will have it for the rest of her life. There is a book called "Always my Twin". Buy it for the survivor. The mother will appreciate it more than you'll ever know.

Diana and Tracy Wheeler said...

Be available on the phone if she calls again. Maybe she made a connection with you and will need you again. Go to a quiet place (with the babies corraled in another room or something). Just so you're "present" for her if she calls you.